Lots of Sport Talk.....

Well.....

Normally I would be discussing the poker wrap up for the week.....but Pokertracker is importing hand histories (observed HH from full Tilt and weekly Pokerstars)...I forgot to do it last week...so its gonna be another 2 hours.

The Seattle Seahawks....

I am trying not to look into the loss against the Atlanta Falcons (post Mike Vick birds).....Part of me wants to say its just a meaningless game, since we already clinched the playoff spot....and winning this game would mean zero.....

But....

The Falcons are bad....
Its not that they outplayed the Seahawks....just losing to any 12 loss team....well it sucks donkey balls.....

The Seahawks are their own toughest opponent....with the exception of the Saints game and the Steelers game....the seahawks pretty much gave away the rest of their losses in similar fashion.

I really expected the Seahawks would win by a TD and only play the starters for a half.....

And now...The Redskins are one of the hottest teams in the league.....

Thank goodness the Game is at Qwest field were the hawks are....

I think I have changed my thinking about which team is gonna be the toughest....
In order...

Packers (not because I think they are better than the cowboys)
Redskins (Washington is just gutting out wins)
Dallas (have they played well for over a month now?)
Giants and Tampa Bay Buccaneers ...this is a Tie...

My hope is the Tampa/New York matchup beats the Cowboys....because neither team scares me at all....The seahawks are definately better.

Hopefully it will be a Seahawks Packer rematch of Matt Hasslebeck's "We want the ball, and we are gonna score" comments heard around the world :-)

I'm getting tired....I thought I would be more stoked about the Hawks.....this loss has take alot out of my sails....lets just hope my energy comes back soon.

Havent been posting much....but...

...having a good day pokerwise.

Playing well the last 2 days....

I believe I have isolated the problem...its all a matter if I can keep from doing it as "habit"....

Trying to bet people off hands they will not fold.....its -EV....and...
OMFG-he-didnt-fold-to-my-1st-2-bets-i-need-to-blow-him-off-the-hand Strategy....

Well...it doesnt friggin work.

I just am trying to be TOO aggressive in the wrong spots.

So for the time being, I am going to play pretty much straightforward poker....

1) its profitable
2) its hte correct way to play
3) it will correct the bad habits
4) it will allow me to open up my game significantly when I feel confident that I am not donking $$
5) My bankroll with thank me

Okay...back to the tables

Feels like I am starting over....

Between playing bad and running bad....down alot this week...enough where I descided to drop down in stakes....still had 30 buy ins....but felt its best to drop down....concetrate on good fundamental play without pressure.

I feel like I should be further along....

but I am not going to dwell on it....

As far as today.....played relativelty well....finish 1/2 buyin down.
Couple bat beats (lol, actually really bad...but I am just trying to concentrate on playing well and not worrying about the results)

I do have to look for opps for 3betting more.....
Isolating the bad players more.

etc etc...I am gonna play about another hour or so tongiht and see if I can keep from tilting off money

I dont know why I am blogging

I was just wondering to myself..."why am I doing this?"

Part of me want to "believe" it is helpful.....or meaningful....or whatever.

It is? I dont friggin know.

To be honest.....alls I want is to play poker well enough so I can make a really good living....even more than the Mariners winning the world series.

In order.
1) Play poker for a living well (be able to 4+ table at least 3/6 and above profitably
2) Mariners win the world series
3) Seahawks win the Superbowl.

Well...Actually I would just like to be happy in my life....Its been an extremely long time since I was....I worry so much about things.

I'd give anything to go back in time.....
I'd give anything just to be moderately happy.....
I'd give anything not to hurt inside so much.....

I'd give my soul, if someone would coach me to play winning poker on a consistant basis....

Of course no one wants my soul though...so I;ll continue to play an A game for 100k hands...then lose 1/2 of the winnings the next 100k hands....stop playing because I cant figure out whats wrong (know I am doing something wrong...but dont know what it is)....and then start playing again....and win again.

ARGH...its so fucking frustrating.....Its like I hit a wall.....I know what variance is....and its not just standard variance....its in a general way I am playing and cant figure it out.

I have so many places for improvement (it feels that way....dunno if true or not)

If someone can get me to a 3ptbb winner at 3/6...hell....I;d be willing to give them 5% of my winnings for half a year (LOL....someone spends 20 hours...and gets 20k...lol)

Nancy Sue called today.....I dont know what to think.....I was so happy back then...I scarificed so much of myself last time....I am the unluckiest person alive...lol

I feel like I have nothing to gain...and nothing to lose.....and it sucks....I'd rather feel like I have only a 1% chance and be able to persue what I want....

I'm not making any sense

Didnt play any poker today....Possum on the porch.....and Seahawks NFL playoff analysis

Its Xmas Eve...played Zero Poker....

I got socks for Christmas from my mom...and thats it.....but as long as I get socks from my mom....it makes xmas.....well.... wouldnt be xmas without them.

I havent mention it....but I think a possum is living under the house......
3-4 times a week he comes up on the porch......starts scratching and clawing at the pastic garbage can (definately not sneaky creatures...I watch TV and can hear him from a mile away)

Last night I descided to open the garbage can, (with free chicken bones on top) and see if I could attract him, so I could take a pic......

Ironically....he didnt even react to the flash...its when I dropped my drink, he ran like crazy.

I might start calling him my little buddy....

btw....possum's sight....its not so good.....and their hearing isnt the best either....I could sneak up on the little rat bastard easliy.....but when ya make sharp loud sounds...they run like hell.

As you can see.....he was having a 7-course meal in the can.


Seahawks Playoff analysis.

Okay....1st of all..let clear this up for people.....
The Seahawks are underrated this year....the should be EVERYONES sleeper pick this year....

Seahawks Strengths.

Defense-----Incredibly improved....its times better than when they went to the superbowl.
Defense----0Look at the probowl selections
Defense----It matches up great with Dallas Cowboys, Green Bay Packers, Tampa Bay Buccaneers, New York Giants, and Washington Redskins......the only team that it might be a push...is Minnesota Vikings....and that is only because of Adrian Peterson

Offense---Passing attack only.....it is one the best in the NFL.....70% of the time...at other times...I do wonder...
Matt Hassleback has the experience...He's great.....he wont be hall of fame.....but he's good enough to lead the seahawks back to the superbowl.

Punt Return Team
Josh Brown (I still consider him a strength even though not like past years)
KO Return team (underrated...no TDs...but if ya TD runs from other Teams...Hawks are 2-3 in Ret average.


Seahawks Weakness

Running game....its alot better now that weeks ago.....but it might be a problem.......but if they can just be average....seahawks roll.

With the Seahawks winning the 3rd seed in the playoffs.....they are a Redskins Win away from the perfect playoff setup.

First Round ----Washington Redskins
The Least scary of any playoff team...they are on a roll....and I might be underestimating them...
All in All though.....My hope is Skins lose and Vikings lose...so neither team thinks they have a chance.

Alt----Minnesota Vikings....as I have said before....I would fear the Playoff return of Steve Hutchinson.....He makes any RB a Probowl typa back....and with Adrian Peterson doing the running duties....the Seahawks would have their hands full on the defense side...and the Offense would have to be on their game...because they would not get many ops.

2nd Round----Packers (no matter who wins Bucs/Giants...Hawks will play the Pack if they win.
Could Brett Farve will the Packers to the win? Of course.....but unlikely.

It comes down to if the Hawks get pressure on Farve ...if they do...Hawks win.....if they don't...hawks lose...its that simple.
I still like the Hawks in this game....Mike Holgren is an Offensive Guru...he will score enough points to win

NFC Championship Game----My guess is The cowboys...I pray its Tampa Bay....38.95% chance its the Giants....

My preference in Order
Giants (we own them and Manning....lets just say he would be Mr INT and TO)
Bucs--we beat them week 1...

Both of the above would be at qwest field....loudest in the league.....
Manning+hawks D=Seahawks win

Lets be realistic though.....Its gonna be the Cowboys.

Hawks vs Boys

Hawks match up extremely well.......
Key to the Game.....Whitten vs Hawks LBs

If the hawks contain Whitten....they win (well unless they let Owens go wild)
Cover Whitten....Tony Romo is on his butt most of the game.

I like the Hawks chances this year....last year I figured we'd beat the Cow-girls....but I didnt think we would get back to the SB.....this year.....I wish the Running game was better....
BUT....Defense wins championship.....right?

If not...the passing attack will take care of the rest.

Poker: Week of 12/17-12/23

End of Week Update

Hands 10,083
Profit -$156.90
BB/100 -3.75 (-1.87 PTBB/100)
Hours 25.33 (Smacked into the wall on Thursday)
-$6.18 Per Hour

To be totally Honest....this week of poker Sucked beyond belief......

Holes in my game "re-appeared"
My Discipline was non-existant
I felt worse than I have in months.....If I wasnt so stubborn...I would have quit.

Thank goodness I didnt Tilt off all my bankroll on Thursday.....
I can remember how many buyins it was....but it was an incredible downswing...
1/2 due to very poor play...the other half being unlucky.

Things I need to do this week

Rewatch some of the Videos (these are what got me in the right direction)
Play more Hands...its Xmas...but I still need to play more.
Play less tables....6 tables Max
PAY ATTENTION TO READS MORE
Study about Ranges and Poker Math

Seattle Seahawks win again.....

I actually thought about writing this post before the game started...LOL

I was 100% sure the Hawks would win this game before it started....and they didnt dissappoint.

With the Exception of the 79 yard pass to Derrick Mason, The Hawks "D" was Pro-Bowl Caliber
(1/3 of the NFC PRO Bowl team is from the Seahawks Defense)

Oh...and thats another thing I didnt comment week ago....
4 of the 11 Probowl starters are from the seahawks (I've been telling people all year the Seahawks Defense is Underrated.)

Lofa Tatupu
Patrick Kerney
Julian Peterson
Marcus Trufant

LOL...I just look at that list and thought....."Dang, thats alot of Talent"
And...its all on one team.....

Let me say it again.....
The Hawks Defense is the Best in the NFC

Its a Final (I started this at the end of the 4th QTR)

Seattle Seahawks 27 Baltimore Ravens 6 ---Final

LOL....

I Love Mike Holmgren (Watching the post-game interview)

Talking about Troy Smith, and the Hawks trying to put maximum pressure for his first start...
"You dont want to give the rookie any hope of survival"

I actually delivered a mattress to Mike Holmgrens on Mercer Island (dont worry Mike, I wont tell anyone where ya live)...BEAUTIFIL house on the Water.
He wasnt there, it was the offseason and he was on vacation.....

Man that was a long time ago...

LOL...I swear I delivered to have the Hawks at the Time....

I even delivered to Matt Hasselbeck when he 1st arrived in Seattle (it was just a month or so after the Hawks traded for him)....His wife was extremely Nice to us.....

Matt.....we need ya man...No INTs and we goto the Superbowl.

Shawn Alexander....dude....good job today....Running hard....Prove to the world you're a stud.

Did I say the Defense is AWESOME?

****Pause**** (watching Matt's post-game interview)

Okay...I am gonna wrap this up and get to playing some Poker.

GO HAWKS!!!!

I know what the problem is, but I cant make myself slow down to fix it....

Its sound really stupid.....but its true......

98% of the time I am playing at least a B to A+ Game of Poker
And then there are 3 or 4 hands per session....that I cant move the slider over fat enough to bet,raise,3bet,shove etc etc etc when I shouldnt....If I had 1 second to decide....the choices I make...well...I could rationalize it....but I dont...I have 8-15 seconds before my tank timer kicks in...and since I dont utilize that as well as I should...I always have like 80 seconds or more each table....

I dont have an excuses......I tell myself before every session I need to slow down and take my time each action....but 10 minutes in...even if its only a couple tables....if all the tables have actions at the same time.....(even if they are junk hands and obvious folds)....its like a silent trigger....that I just do it this way.....

Action at table 1 .....quick click to fold (easy)
Action at table 1(same time) A8os from the MP (I didnt even notice I was MP, thought was CO)....I BetPot so quick I dont even look at the stats of the btn/Co or the blinds.....Essentially at quick glance it looks like a decent or good open....but the READS, that are important....not even looking at them until "maybe" the flop....

Esssentially I taking average situation...that look average on the surface...and not pausing to look...if I did...I would see that they were Marginal at best because of reads (bunches of PFR start to add up......as well as the Misguided CBs)

If I would just take 5+ seconds on lots of situations.....I cant even imagine how many BB/100 hands I would save by alalyzing the situation and adjusting to the read.

I really dont know what to do....

I know the problem......It "should" be easy to fix....I do it the right way for the 1st 10 minutes or so...then it just slips back into habit........

I mean...I even have a word document that I have linked to my opener (prog that opens all poker related software I need to play...PT, Pokerstars PAHud, AHK scripts etc etc)

I read it outloud before I play...and some of the key things...I have them written out from 5-20 times...and I keep repeating them.

Argh...I am goingto have to do something drastic though.....The last 20K hands has been really bad....before that I was doing pretty good about it...but it seems when I do go on a prolonged upswing.....taking my time on actions seems to dwindle.

Maybe I'll have to get somethink like a chess clock.....to make sure I take at least 5 seconds on each action.....even if its folding 72os to an allin.

I dunno.....just really frustrating when ya play a session that should be winning session...and ya break even because ya played 1 pair or 2 pair like the nuts postflop....or...ignored the villians actions and THE FRIGGIN MEANING of his actions.....where 5 seconds of thinking SHOULD have resulted in a better line. (i.e. taking a marginal hand like QQ on an Ace high flop and playing it like I have an ace)

Whaaaaaa Whaaaaaaa.

Pathetic....I know the problem...but cant find a solution to ensure I do the right thing....
(5 seconds afterward thinking "I should have spend 5 seconds thinking before I acted")
Most of the actions are horrible.....just -EV compared to other lines.

I am lame.....rambling.....I am just so mad at myself....Its the same problem....I get it to go away....play 50k of winning poker (A game).....then....little differences.....can barely tell the difference....but there is....key situations that I leak money....I know it happens.....and I cant seem to self correct it.....byt the time it works out......well....I go 9 steps forward.....8 steps back...8 forward.....7 back....10 forward....9 back...and so on...

I am winner....but I see such HUGE potential......variance is one thing....but I am leaking money because of this.....even with standard variance and swings....95% of my game is 10+++++ bb/100 winner (closer to 20+BB)......

I am going to rest before my head explodes.

Maybe one of the StoxPoker Gods will have some wisodom in a video that just "Clicks" in my head or something....I dunno.....I know the leatherass9 and cottonseed1 videos that I first watch....its like a bell went off...and I completely wiped out that part of the game that was hurting me......now...I dunno....just like a switch went off.......Maybe I should rewatch the first 10 I watched....LOL....100+ NL vids...and I am suppose to remember in what order I watched them...I mean...I've watched 40 of them or so.

Head hurts.....I'm tired of A-game....then brainfart...and end up $9 up for a 3k session...when I know it should have been $250++

Ugh.....

Yesterday was completely terrible......

The exact opposite of the day before.....

I had the worst single day results I have ever had.....

Down 7 buyin in right around 1200 hands......

I do not want to dwell on it (its the reason I didnt post it yesterday and have been chilling out most of the day)

I actually thought about dropping down...but my plan is to just play today...

Play 4 tables
Stop if I lose 2 buyins and drop down (It might be nitty....but 35 Buyin bankroll is the minimum)
Play Relaxed.....
Timer MUST activate before I do anything if Pot is going to be Medium or bigger
(might piss people off....but I really do need to stop the 1 time per session brainfart that cost me a large pot....that alone will get me +EV)

Besides that...well...I am just trying to clear my mind today and not worry about "getting better"...I will worry about that tommorrow...today I just want to play...play decently...and book a session that I feel I played well.

LOL.....48 BB/100...is it sustainable?

I was just gonna play a little bit of poker......watch some TV and get some sleep.

But, I just had to post this sick graph for today.....

I couldnt get it to display BB/100....it would only show PTBB/100...so its only HALF as many BB

I played Half the amount of hands I normally would.....and made over half what I did all last week....all in one day....just Sick.

500BB.....for many thats a good week......

I just think its funny.....sure makes up for the past 5 or so days.....I am playing much better....

I definately need to expand my "Prep the day reading list"....it might not be the main reason....but it does remind me to be patient and discipline.

Today I was very patient.....
My discipline was around 95%....
and I still hate it when they hit the one-outter

Back to todays results (I know results are just the output of playing good).....

As Dave Chappelle would say....
"I'm Rich Bitch!!!!"

Go Craig

Results arent suppose to matter....but they do.

I played pretty well today (so far...I play on playing another 600 hands later)

And.....result-wise...it definately reflected playing well (up almost 4 buyins)

Unfortunately I updated my PokerTracker and for some odd reason it reverted back to a trail version....I emailed support and hopefully they will give me the new Reg code soon.....cause without Poker Tracker.....EV definately drops....they are usually pretty good at getting back on support issues.

I cant wait until Poker Tracker V3 the 3bet stats are gonna be beneficial for sure.

Silva----4 years 48 million.....LOL...I still cant get over it.....Bavasi's attempt to make the Mariners permanent 2nd place team for the next 4 years.

Lets just hope Felix Hernandez wins the Cy Young.....because thats what its gonna take for the Mariners to beat the Angels in the West (Angels didnt get any better...well...okay...slightly better)

BTW-- Did I mention I was up 4 Buyins today so far? WOO HOO

Its official, and worse than originally reported....

Carlos Silva, 4 years 48 million

at least its not Kyle Lohse for 10+ million per year.

The funny thing is, a bunch of fans are going to be super happy because
"Look Ma, the Mariners signed the top over-hyped free agent pitcher"

Lets just hope the is Bavasi's only mutilation of the franchise this year.
(and to think I actually thought he was doing a good job.....then the Ho-Ram trade....and his brain has turned off since then)

Poker......If I Stop, Breathe, and Think about the situation.....

.....I will make tons of Money playing poker.

If I don't?
I will go broke.

Tuesday totally sucked....
I played horribly.....
I felt horrible.....

I really dont understand it.....I "almost" can tell when my mind is not in optimal thinking mode,

Having an emotional day, is not a good mind frame for poker......I play well 90%...but the other 10 percent is donktastic.......its amazing though.....

How my pokertracker numbers can look exactly the same (I mean everything).....except getting stupid with 3 or 4 hands......

Wednesday was much better.....
I played really well.....
Finished the day a little bit up......but played better than the results...and thats good.

The Times that I didnt play well today were as follows (just to remind myself)

Opening too many tables
(I actually reduced the amount I play...but the way I was doing it was....open 10+ "good" tables....then reduced them as picked the best)
Basically I need to open up the best tables I want to play......and have a "max" amount of tables open....If I want to find another one that is better...I need to close a table before opening

Take time on Every descision that matters (all flop-river and an 3bet, raises etc etc)

I really need to read more articles and posts that matter.

I also need to follow up on study better....I really should reread some post here, to give me an idea what to work on for the day.

The Mariners make the 3rd worst possible move.....

Its 90% official....

Carlos Silva(former minnesota twins) is gonna sign for 4 years 44 million with the Mariners

1st. Its not that I hate Silva....or think he is trash.....he is just average.

Why is this one of the worst possible moves....

1) The rotation isnt any better than it would be with other pitchers available (a little in some instances but not 11 million worth)...The rotation go "better" because of Ho-ram and Weaver being ejected from it....not because of addition of talent.
2) Silva isnt much better than other options we already had for league minimum.
Baek, Morrow, Rowland-Smith, Rhorbaugh, Sean White, Feierabend, RA dickey......all of these options dont cost much....ALSO....The Mariners arent locked in for 4 years
3) Its a 4 year contract.....conisdering Silva doesnt dramatically improve the Mariners...that is a large committment that at best ads a win or two at most.
4) Silva is a monkey against lefties and the MAriners already have 2/5 of the staff that isnt "good/great" against lefties.....left handed platoon splits will be optimal against the Mariners...lets hope all the AL lefties goto the NL
5) Safeco doesnt benefit Silva much.....Left field short porch actually hurts him, where even with guys like Jarrod Washburn who we signed to 4 year 40+...safeco benefits his style of pitching...
Safeco doesnt hurt Silva....but Safeco + FA pithcer who safeco would "improve" = cheaper solution
6) Now 3/5 of the Rotation takes up 30+% of the total payroll....and that doesnt include King Felix, who is gonna enter his arbitration years soon.......30+% for guys not having "impact"...thats alot of money that should be spent wiser (people flipping out about Richie sexson....at least the 1st 2 years he produced for his money.....but for his mariner carreer...its basically similar to the Mariners Trio)
7) The 3rd and 4th year of the contract is when its gonna hurt the most....Either we will be blowing the team up, or wont have $$$ to address other needs (which will probably still be pitching, and we'll be in the same position....not utilizing the minors correctly)
8) Pretty much secures we lose $50,000 for RA Dickey ....I would have rather seen him get a slot...I am not a huge fan or anything....but IF...he can find the plate....a knuckler is like having a leftey in the line-up to disrupt the other team in a 3 game series)

The Good....
1) Most likely....Adam Jones wont get traded for Bedard.....Of course if Jones is a bust....well....we wont be talking about silva.....I doubt Jones will be a bust....in a year or two we will be say "All-Star Adam Jones"

2) We didnt trade tons of Talent for some 3rd rate pitcher (Such as the Ho-Ram / Soriano trade last year)

3) Ummmm.....Silva isnt Weaver or Ho-Ram?

When the "good" points are "we didnt get this other guy"...thats a sign of an average signing or trade.

If he can reproduce 2005 and 2007 ....he will be fine.....its just there were better options for the future.

But all that being said....

Carlos Silva....Welcome....Once ya put on the Mariners uniform...it means I will be a lifelong fan.
And Hopefully se can move Richie for better 1B defence, which should help ya out.

P.S. More pitches you can throw for groundballs to the 3B side will equall more outs, and more wins

Adrian Beltre and Yuniesky Betancourt = Great Wall of Chine + Industrial StregnthVaccuum

If Yuni "fixes" his throws to 1st base ....its the best 3B/SS combo in the AL IMHO

Go Mariners

Ups and Downs and Ups and Downs.....Pay Good, then Bad...then good...etc etc

Poker.....If I quit trying to shove people off the nuts I'd make a bundle.....

drumroll please........

2000+ hands......
-$0.65 total

Considering I donked off in 3 hands almost 4 buyins (1 hand was borderline...the others...I was just plain stupid)

Definatley gonna watch a Stoxpoker video tommorrow....(at least 1 NL 6-max)

I cant wait to watch Mr. Omaha Robert Williamson III coaching video (Pot-limit Omaha)
I was shocked when I found out the hired him to be the new omaha coach....
Best money i've spent in a long time.

If you havent join StoxPoker.com yet....definately do...and use the link or craigsmagic as a refference

Poker: Week of 12/10-12/16

End of Week Update

Hands 14,061
Profit +$557.90
BB/100 8.22 (4.11 PTBB/100)
Hours 33.22 (very little sat/sun because lack of confidence)
$16.80 Per Hour

At the begining of the week....Played incredible, that went hand in hand with winning at a rate that I KNOW could not continue......

What I did not expect....was for me to lose confidence in my game so abruptley on the downswing to follow...

I am up a good number for the week....but thursday-sunday (I actually ended up sunday even though I dropped a buyin quickley) ......10 years old could run over me.

Psychologically it was a very painful week......To be honest.....it was night and day...half the week...Playing A++ game....questioning if I shouldnt be playing ALOT higher.....
The rest of the week...I wondered if I shouldnt be playing the lowest of low Micro-limits.

Example:

Today....Complete idiot Me

QJs (I think....dunno it might have been QJos) Raise from the CO...
BB calls. (a realatively tight and good player which should have been my first clue that he cold calls)
Flop is Q 9 2 Rainbow
BB Leads into me for 1/2 pot (red flag #2)
All week long (frustration)
I have top pair....I pop it for a little less than pot (reflecting I should have just called an evaluated turn)
He 3bets medium...(red flag #3....no read as tricky...but I lumped him in with other bluffers)
I shove (pretty dumb given his line)
He thinks about it (which is something If I would have done....I would have lost less than $5)
He Calls....He has KK (which when I look at the hand I should have read that or a set EASILY)
bet/3bet line...They Will have something 90% of the time

I played poorly the last half of the week.....
Not sure if I need to be more aggressive or less (the numbers say more.....but its mainly losing Big pots on stupid "moves"

Rule #1 should be:
Don't Trying to Blow people out trying to get them to fold (people dont fold the nuts)

I actually feel better right now....but I have to admit....over 24 hours ago I had very little hope.

I am thinking of moving down tp work on my game and get my VPIP and PFR up a little....
16-17/10-13 game is not going to cut it in 6-max

Also...I have to do some thinking and research about getting play back at and 3/bet at...it seemed to be happening alot more at the end of this week....its almost like they just knew they could push me off of hands.....
I dunno....maybe it will correct itself with me playing hands stronger (If you play strong....well....strong beats stong and respect)

Okay....I am gonna do some tinkering with PaHud

Seattle Seahawks Update....

Well, I really dont know what to say....

Previous weeks the Seahawks have been looking like the team to beat in opinion..... I figured they would at least lose 1 game before the end of the year (with the playoffs wrapped up, not much to play for....)

After today...I am seriously worried about the Seahawks running attack....Today proved the passing attack could not work without the running attack.

I am seriously worried.....

We all know Shawn Alexander is just an average runningback.....and ever since Steve Hutchinson was stolen from the hawks....well....(Its so true....it all starts from the O-Line)
Maurice Morris...he's an improvement....but the O-line just isnt what it use to be.

The Defense is still awesome.....

Can they do it? Yeah, but its all gonna come down on Matt's shoulders, and the recieving crew.
I am still up on the Hawks.....and still think Superbowl....but man....they have to get it together an atleast gets some yards on the ground each game.

Go Hawks......just forget about this game, it means nothing

Mariners Fans, Say goodbye to Hiroki Kuroda

Its official....he's gonna sign with the Los Angeles Dodgers.

I am very neutral on this......
We all know the Mariners need pitching.....
Pitching doesnt grow on trees.
13 million a year for a #3/#4 starter and three years....The Mariners already have 2 pitchers with that description (Washburn and Batista)

Would it improve the team? Yes....but not enough to make them contenders....and would weaken the team down the road.

The Result of not signing Kuroda.....

Bavasi is gonna have a panic attack now........I hope he doesnt do something stupid to ruin the franchise by signing an over-rated free agent (okay, not over rated....but signing someone from the no talent free agent class)

Carlos Silva (If he becomes a Mariner....I become an Angels fan......Hold on a second....I contemplated suicide) Its not because he is horrible...but a 4-5 year contract for a #5 pitcher....
I couldnt take it.....save the 60 million Mr Bavasi.....spend it wisely...DO NOT DO IT....its not the 1st year....its th 4-5th year when ya cant sign good free agents or ya want to make a trade but cant because 3/5 of your rotation is untradeable.

Kyle Loshe?????? I just read an article saying we were looking at tossong big money his way???
Please shoot me.

Start Baek
Start Morrow
Start Ryan Rowland-Smith
Start Sean White
Start Ryan Feierabend

BUT PLEASE DO NOT SIGN A PITCHER FOR 12+ MILLION A YEAR that is not any better than the above pitchers....
I Beg You Bill.....dont castrate the Mariner Faithful

The ONLY Free agent Pitchers the Mariners should be looking at now are:
Bartolo Colon (1 year deal on the cheap)
Ummmmm...besides that.....1 year deals....
Locking long term would destroy the franchise for the next several years

No matter what the Mariners do this offseason....we are far behind the angels overall....
We should concentrate on increasing the farm system and improving the team overall. with shorter term deals for NON superstar players.

No Ho-Ram
No Weaver

The MAriners just got better.

Unloading Richie wouldnt be bad, and then signing Geoff Jenkins

I could go on an on...but I am definately tired

Average boring day....

Half the day I felt just as crappy....

Poker for the day I ended up 1/2 a buyin down over 2300 hands

I was playing way to tight, and essentially blinding my money away....not good...but not horrible.

My confidence is so so at best....I even fooled around at 2 stakes lower sLaging it up.....

Nancy Sue called....I always like talking to her....even though....well.....Lets just say there is a reason I wont ever date again.....LOL...been 1 year and 4 months :-)
Its True what they say.....Evil people cant really hurt ya, its hte ones that ya love that it hurts the most.

I miss being in Love
I miss companionship

Unfortunately pain lasts a lifetime

Enough of that....I might write a post in a month or two of the "details" of my life.

I'll finish this up.....then another post about the Mariners

I just want to Cry....and feel like I want to die....

I just feel like total crap......

Poker....I am not sure if I just sucked today....if the fish got lucky.....

To be honest I dont have a clue if I played great, good, average, fair, poor, bad or crappy.

the Red numbers in poker tracker mean I lost several buyins.

I really just want to cry......I lost more in a day last week, and felt 20 times better....
I played worse 2 days ago and I feel worse than I did then (and I know I didnt play as bad as that day.....

this is my day in a nutshell....

I have a set of 3s on the flop...
Bet for value.....
Bet for Value....
River is some card that cant hit any range.....say....4 of diamonds...
Bet for Value....
The stupidest villian on the planet min raises.......
I replay the hand in my head.....No resistance...just call station....Raggedy board....
I thought he had a pair....K4? 94?......
I bet 3 streets, is he stupid enough to think bottom 2 pair is good.

He called all the way down with 44.....K937 board (note:I potted it EVERY STREET)

and then there are the hands I push, and dont even think before I do.....

I really just want to cry......
I hate this......

I'm not sure if its bad beats, or my own stupidity.

I know I got floated alot today......

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Combine that with being lonely.......
Craig's not a very happy camper....

I wish I was more sociable....
I wish people weren't such liars.....(LOL...especially friends and partners)

I definatley need to get out....I am going to have to force myself to goto the Thunderbirds game tommorrow.

I feel so pathetic going to everything alone though.

I wish I wasnt me.