SEATTLE MARINERS OPENING DAY!!!!!

Okay......

Basic Recap of the game:

Erik Bedard ----When the guy pitches at 40% of his best...and...he only gives up one run as a starter....He's definately an Ace....

OMFG his stuff is amazing.....video on TV doesnt do it justice.....he didnt have the controll working today (and combine that with the homeplate umpire with a strikezone for a 2 year old) BUT Holy Cow....He gets better every month too!!!!! (looking at his historical numbers....he is horrible in April).....

Its Amazing when ya see a pitcher struggling with command.....and ya can just sense the confidence that he's an Ace.....any other pitcher (besides Felix)....Mariners fans would be pulling their hair out.....but it was extremely calm atmosphere for a guy who didnt have his best stuff....which by itself is completely amazing.

I have a Man-Crush on Felix, but Bedard is my Man-Crush-Mistress


anyone reading this....you're probably hate my writing...but to be honest...I really dont care....I just jump around topic to topic....no real structure...but just saying what I am think at the moment......

Kenji----your a rocket arm stud....teach those pathetic rangers never to run.

Ichiro---Okay...I have alot of Man-crushes on the Mariners....We take him for granted so much...and he's worth every penny of the contract extention.

Green---EoF---Putz = Game over

Jose Lopez -----Please dont attempt to steal....please do a litle better on Defense....WOOT Jose at the plate...please keep up the timely hits after the all-star break.


As Far as Texas Rangers.....Mr Millwood....it has to suck to pitch well...and have the dream sucked out of ya.

For the guys on my fantasy team (Blalock and Hamilton)....please get some hits...but dont make any game winning hits.

Oh....Snowing on opening day.....at least we were smart enough to build a stadium with a retractable roof (attention Cleveland).....

I am so discombobulated ..this post is making no sense...

I am just so happy the Mariners won....161 more game till the mariners are in the playoffs.

Oh...

JJ=K

what does that mean?

It means...

You are THUNDERSTRUCK!!!! courtesy of JJ putz

Seattle Mariners = Me in Love (Opening Day Euphoria)

I dont know what it is......but I absolutely love everything that is Seattle Mariners.....

I know I say it every year.....

Blah blah blah....World series....Mariners...blah blah blah....gonna go all the way...blah blah...we are the best...blah blah...

BUT.......

THIS YEAR IS THE YEAR!!!!!!!

in 2005, 2006....yeah....its because I am a fan to the core......but this year is different....
This year We have 2 of the 6 best pitchers in Baseball....

This year....."experts" are actually picking us to make the playoffs.....(not that means anything)

This year....We are on the way to winning all the games....

162 Wins and ZERO losses.

Okay....I was just gonna do a post about the recap of Opening day.....but I just have to get this out of my system so I can give an give an unbiased recap of the game.... (if you expect that...you need to stop reading now and leave)

Erik Bedard---- --THE ACE
Felix Hernandez---The KING
JJ PUTZ----------THE DUKE of Destruction
Ichiro ------------The Prince (of all royalty...the Prince is the one everyone loves in the stories)
Adrian Beltre-----Ummm......MR STUD (yeah, its not a royal title, but the only Mariners 3B-man to ever win a Gold Glove award....no Royal title will do him Justice)

I could go on and on...I mean...look at that list....95% chance those 5 will be on the All-Star team
(you know...that game that will give the mariners home field advatage in the playoffs)

Ack....

I should have wrong yesterday.....

Here is what I would have said yesterday....
about the bench and pitchers who were contending for spots...

Morrow---- YEAH, he's going to the Minors....not because I dont like him.....but....maybe...just maybe.....if the bullpen can do well without him.....they will consider converting him to a starter......Thats my Xmas wish....Just a waste of a draft pick if we make him a bullpen guy thats not a closer....1st Round draft picks are not meant to be set-up guys.

RRS (Ryan Rowland-Smith) Booo....(note I LOVE RRS)....I actually wish he was in Tacoma...same reason as Morrow....I would have like to see Morrow and RRS looked at for potential Rotation guys next year......with washburns contract up....RRS would have been perfect as the #5 guy and upside to be a long term cheap #3 (same thing with Morrow...save the salary with quality starters from the minors)

Aurthur Rhodes ----Yeah....and Booo....Yeah that we didnt just dump him....he's looking good....more work in extended spring training....gonna be a good addition to the pen....He looked sharp from what I saw of him this spring....Maybe he wont be as dominant as 2001....but...he can get lefties out.......The Boo part was...I just wish he was ready physically to start the year with the big club.....and RRS to Tacoma would have been idea for the potential future.....

Dickey ----??????What the heck?!?!?!?!?!? How could he get shipped to AAA Tacoma....
At least they were smart enough to retain him (we got him cheap for what we gave the Twins)
I hope they have him start in Tacoma, and plan on him as the #6 starter if an injury happens.
I am still perplexed about him not being on the 25 man roster...he definately deserved it.
Maybe they just didnt get Baek traded intime for opening day....I dunno....
KNUCKLEBALL......every fan loves it....and as a lifelong Mariners fan...I demand to see it in a Mariners uniform this year.....I still cant believe he was sent to Tacoma (gonna earn another PCL pitcher of the year award)

Baek -----I half expected them to trade him to a team who needed a starter...I am not upset we didnt....depth at starting pitching is always a plus....having him long relief because he was out of options...I expected that if we didnt trade him.....he wouldnt have made it through waivers.
(Love ya Baek.....but I have a feeling ya wont be around too long unless someone gets hurt)

Mike Morse----HOLY SH@#$%$%^&#$^&T!!! he was going nuts in Spring Training....cant really argue with him making the team.

Miguel Cairo----ummm---Next ...I'm gonna love him because he's a mariner....but 2 Willies is 1 too many.

Burke---- I love this guy...I dunno why....we knew he was going to make the team...because Clement needed another year at Tacoma....but....just a good story of a Guy sticking to his dream.

Norton----hopefully, ya dont bail on us in AAA....would have been a better bench if ya made it, but because of "stupid-wisdom" the bench wasnt put together very well...and ya had to suffer.

Jimerson---Wow....what a story....I want to hug your sister (not in a creepy old guy kinda way, but in a "you are an awesome person" kinda way).....to be honest...didnt think you were gonna make the team......I like the defensive aspect coming off the bench for the outfield (except reed, C-Jim you're the best option) Please be a great 25th man and pinch run really well....and give Raul a rest in the 9th when we are ahead......it is important.....
Congrats dude.....was listening to KJR to your interview....WOW.....No go out there and do some crazy MAriner hero stuff.......try to channel the 1995 spirit of Luis Sojo.

Mark LOWE ---OH YEAH BABY Way to be healthy man....Morrow to the minors...WOOT (note I love Morrow...but I hope he's in seattle as a starter)....and I cant wait to see everyone else being surprised....except me...and a few others.....Lowe = STUD IMHO ....I love Green as the setup guy....but I will love it even more when LOWE is the 8th inning guy....reminds me of the 2001 bullpen....8th and 9th inning guarenteed win.

Willie (okay...I knew he was going to make the team, but I was hoping he would goto AAA to help the team).....Pride of Port Orchard...blah blah....now if ya can get Cairo on the DL and have a good LHanded bat on the bench....the team would be better for it.

Okay...enough....next post....

Report from opening day....WOOT

Busy.....Mariners on Da Brain....Busy and Busy...oh yeah..GO MARINERS!!!!

I have been so busy posting tickets for sale....its gonna be a long year...the MTM is gone...and I am going to have to scramble just to have a roof over my head by the end of the year....thank goodness I am a bright person....or I would be homeless by July.

Besides working my butt off...Mariners...Mariners....more Mariners....
I WON!!!!!!!

I actually won a pair of opening day tickets for 3/31 against the Texas Rangers.....
Watching Mariners Nightly on Fox Sports NorthWest ....they have a contest.....
"Cactuschow"....alls ya have to do is watch the show....see what reastraunt in Peoria they are featuring in the Cactus Chow segment, email the answer to foxsports.net and they have a drawing every night....

and...I WON!!!!!

I love free stuff.....

and Mariners Free stuff......OH YEAH BABY.

The Seattle Mariners isnt a Passion....its a Lifestyle.

I am so excited for the season to start.....

I hope the mariners are going into the all-starbreak in 1st....and the front office is willing to do anything to win.....

I know the mariners arent the best team talentwise by far....I'd probably rank them around 7th or 8th (potential of being higher)....and sad is they are 5th or 6th in the AL....

But hey....Richie could rebound....Felix lives his name "KING FELIX".....
Beltre has a breakout year....
Basically the Offense needs to produce...we got a good staff of pitchers (over paid for the 3-5 starters....but its good)

I just have this feeling.....something magical is gonna happen

Okay...its late...

I have played almost zero poker....
I want to play more...to get good....but it seems like with all the effort I have put in...I am just spinning my wheels.....I'll need to make a posting just on that sometime in the next week....
I would give almost anything to be able to make a decent living playing poker....I love to play.
Poker proffesion.....or Mariners world series?....hmmmm....can I have both? :-)

Sleep time

Mariners FEVER!!!!!

Part of me doesnt feel like I am into the season yet.....
Part of me cant wait....Even though talentwise the Mariners are probably 5th best....the the Ace-Bedard and the King Felix...thats an Ace/King combo that can be dangerous in the playoffs.

Every 6 years...the Mariners have won...1995....2001...and now its 2008.....
Dave Neihaus is going to the hall of fame....
I have this feeling this is the year....
Beltre and Ichiro...the King and Ace....

Prediction central....Mariners 97-61 and 1st place in theWest

GO MARINERS!!!!!

I need to play more poker...play decent...except for the one hand where I donked off my stack to the worst player at the table.

Poker: The Two Weeks of 2/11/08-2/24/08 (I've been avoiding updating so its REALLY late)

End of Week(s) Update

Hands 27.669
Profit -979 BB
BB/100 -3.54 (-1.77 PTBB/100)
Hours 55.88
-8.76 BB/HR Per Hour

Well...since I had such a horrible week from the 11th to 18th...I said "SCREW IT"....
and I screwed around with the update.....after playing so well at the begning of the month

(I played so well at the 1st week of the month, and the results reflected it)......

The past couple weeks...If I played well...The results sucked...if I played crappy....the results sucked.

Basically...my play wasnt very good as a whole for those two weeks....and I really couldnt tell ya what I did wrong for the most part.....

LOL....I am trying to tweek and change to much....and occationally play to many tables.

I did everything possible wrong at some point...and the WORST PART...is I could even evaluate what I have done wrong or right....but that is par the course over the last 2 months or so.

To be honest....I feel like I am a good player....who doesnt know how to play good.....
That doesnt make any sense at all...but its the way I feel....

A better way to describe it....

I think on the say...6th level of thinking.....(or whatever...I can think with the best of them)
when I play.....I over or under estimate the villian...and that equals....disaster

I dunno....I have played well for the past 4 days...and ironically that is playing up a level in stakes
(I didnt feel like playing 3k in hands a day for 3 days straight to get the VPPs to make platinum...so I just moved up and played half the amount of hands for the same VPPs)

The stakes didnt bug me....I actually took more time on each descision....which is a good thing....the more time I take each descision...the better I play.

gonna go back to my normal stakes at 25/$0.50....and see if I can put together 50K hands on the plus side.....I am getting real sick of the 20K hands up....20k down.,...20k up.....20k down....I mean...150K hands and I am down less than a buy in.....

ARGH!!!!

Okay...I just needed to yell....I have played well post 2/24...so that is good.....

I think the reason I even made this post...is so I could bury those two weeks in which I sucked donkey balls.

So busy...and GO MARINERS!!!!!

I have been so busy.....well...not that busy....but a bunch of different things....

Go Mariners!!!

GO Ichiro.....I love him so much....he is the engine that makes the MAriners go.

Lol....I dont even know what to write....

I made a huge blog post on Stoxpoker, for the Small stakes Stoxpoker Project
(which by the way is something I would kill for...I know its not gonna be like 20 hours a week coaching....but even if its just a little....my goodness....it could be something extremely good for my game......and I would do anything to improve it)

I am always wary of stuff ya read in the forums....people saying the exact opposite of each other....and to be honest...I am not the best...and when I see people posting stuff that contradict each other...well...ya never know whats true or better.....I'm not a math guy...I am good at math...but I dont like spending 4 hours calculating and number crunching.....snooze

I dunno....

I;ve thought of paying for coaching....but....spending $500 an hour for what? ya dont know what you're getting.....the guy might not communicate the way I NEED....and wasting my bankroll to be in the same spot...I'd rather not spew my money to someone who calls themself a "coach"

I dunno....I dont trust anyone any more.....Its all about the Benjamins....and lieing to to get more from me is not on the top of my list.

But back to the stoxpoker project thing.....lol...man can I blabber on and on.....I just ramble and dont really think of what I am saying....
LOL...I am afraid to see what I wrote....

but...the voting is friday....I thought about begging like some of the others are doing....but I just think that will put people off...and comes across as pathetic.

I have my fingers cross...but I'm not holding my breath...I would love it...but things like that.....well....they just dont happen to me. if it werent for bad luck...I wouldnt have any luck :-)

But...if this is the year for the Mariners...I might actually win it....95...2001...I had good years...and the mariners won.....if I get the SS SP project....its world series baby :-)

I wonder what I would pick if it was Mariners WS or Stoxpoker project...I love the Mariners...but honestly...I need a break for myself...and it might be small..but it would be good for me.

Poker Possum Returns...

He came back again...he must love me

Dave Niehaus Hall of Fame bound...FINALLY!!!!

It is Loooooonnnnnnnnnng over due.

Dave Niehaus is not only the voice of the Mariners.....
He is a Mariner...He is "The Franchise"

To be honest...I dont even know where to start....

I remember going to games....bring an AM radio just to hear the play by play of Dave.
I cant remember a HR that was "belted".....
Grandma is always the relative who supplies the Rye Bread.
Grandma always had "Grand" Salami and not the cheap kind.
"My Oh My" isnt just a saying....its Mariners culture....
Junior is Griffeys 1st name right?
Alvin Davis Maybe "Mr Mariner"....but Dave is "Mr Mariner Sr."
Dave is like Mariners Dad....he rename Norm Charlton.

Gawd I love Dave Niehaus....just listening to his calls of the 95 season...they send chills down my spine.

When I watch replays of Edgar Martinez Double in Game 5 of the Divisional Series against the New York Yankees....I am hearing Daves voice even before he says it.....

"Right now, the Mariners looking for the tie. They would take a fly ball, they would love a base hit into the gap and they could win it with Junior's speed. The stretch... and the 0-1 pitch on the way to Edgar Martinez swung on and LINED DOWN THE LEFT FIELD LINE FOR A BASE HIT! HERE COMES JOEY, HERE IS JUNIOR TO THIRD BASE, THEY'RE GOING TO WAVE HIM IN! THE THROW TO THE PLATE WILL BE ... LATE! THE MARINER'S ARE GOING TO PLAY FOR THE AMERICAN LEAGUE CHAMPIONSHIP! I DON'T BELIEVE IT! IT JUST CONTINUES! MY OH MY!"

Congratulations Dave for winning the Frick Award......Cooperstown bound, and very deserving.

I can't even imagine a Mariners broadcast without Niehaus....From David Segui's first Pitch in 1977 til present.....

I was sad Oct 3, 2004 when Edgar Retired......
The only other day I can imagine being as sad is the day Dave retires.

We Love you Dave, dont ever retire.

Poker: Week of 2/04/08-2/10/08

End of Week Update


Hands 9382
Profit +1320 BB
BB/100 +14.08 (+7.04 PTBB/100)
Hours 18.97
+69.84 BB/HR Per Hour

This week I didnt play as many hours....

Part due to be being lazy....
Part Due to not feeling well emotionally...(spewing is bad and I did a good job this week of not doing it)

I pretty much played a no frills Tight aggressive approach this week...definately on the tight side. Bailed on hands that I thought I was behind...and bet bet bet hands I was ahead.

This style wont be as effecient at higher levels...but it does give me piece of mind...as well as it ephasizes my hand reading....there were only a few times I felt I made really bad river folds or calls...and that means I felt I was strong reading on previous streets.

my best played day was Saturday...flopped tons of straights and lost virtually every set I flopped...it was a weird day...but I played well.

I need to make sure I keep taking my time on descisions...even the basic ones....that is the main difference from the downswing weeks....taking my time is what is profitable.

Hopefully I can keep it up.

Erik Bedard is co-King

Okay...I cant call him King Erik...because Felix is the King....but...Erik is Co-King....even though from now on we cant refer to him that way.

Bedard--left handed....stud...staff ace...and lots and lots and lots of strikeouts.

The Pride of Canada

To be honest....I dont really know what to say.....

He is one of the Top 5 pitchers in all of Baseball
The Mariners now have a Pitching staff that is in the Top 5 in the Majors, because of the Two Aces.

Bedard is a stud...and I will just leave it at that.

The Bedard Deal is Final.

All Mariners fans have been waiting forever for it to become finalized....

After week of Orioles being complete douche-bags and drawing this out weeks longer than necessary, The Mariners finally get their man.

I have been in general against this trade....mainly because I think Jone, Tillman, and George way to much.....I think Tillman is WAY undervalued....and including Butler too....thats a whole lot of Talent. Baltimore got an incredible deal.....even better than they realize.

Adam Jones = Stud outfielder who is essentially free for 6 years
George Sherrill = The ultimate left hander...and not Baltimore's closer (or setup) super value
Chris Tillman = I have this bad feeling he is gonna end up being an Ace type of pitcher
Tony Butler = Left handed....if he can every stop walking people....a #3 pitcher or better
Cam = Talented reliever....closer of the future....cheap bullpen talent....mariners should have gave up green.

Some people look at that list and think its just a good trade for Baltimore...to me....they fleeced us bad.

Okay....that is the last time I am going to dwell on Jones.....

New post now...to welcome Erik

Poker is going well this week....

So far this week poker is going well....somewhere around 5 PTBB/100....

And...cleared the Bonus I purchased with FPPs....

Ironically when I reign in the aggression (getting on the loose aggressive side)....My win rate suffers

I dont think its from the extra aggression so much, or playing junkier hands....the only time I feel it really affects my game...is when I stop thinking...and insta-shove or insta-raise "thinking" I can bet them off the nuts (or a hand that they will not fold...either because they are a calling station and call with a 3rd pair to a shove....or they have a royal flush (not really, but ya know what I mean...Top set isnt gonna fold on a raggy board).

Starting last week and continue to today...the amount of times I;ve done it is EXTREMELY small....the only hand I think came close was a hand where I Check raised all in with an over pair on a slighty scary board......it was a pretty big push...so it was the size relative to the strength of my hand/board that I questioned. I wasnt "good"...but it wasnt horrible either.
LOL....but no T4os turn shoves, after Leatherass9 calls the flop bet, and a blank turn (I still like the aggression...but with the blank coming I still cant get over me firing again....what did I think he had? Only thing he is calling with was a Set, 2 pair or Air/float/steal....LOL...cant wait till I get called a retard on the video. Overall though...I havent made stupid aggressive errors.

As far as Passive errors...several tables got run over a bit....some of it due to cards...but some of it from folding to the pure aggression....lol...but it better that when I "feel" I have a read that they are trying to run over me.....I raise/3bet....they smooth call with AA or KK and I dump more money too them on the flop :-(

The thing that for now that works for me is being selectively aggressive......Everywhere I read and watch Vids at Stoxpoker, they say a loose aggressive pound them till they puke style will result in the best win-rate.....Well...I dunno what villians others are playing against....but I go into a 20k downswing when I try to pound the passive players....ya know...they call ya on the flop with nothing...and hit the straight when ya shut down cause you're convinced they have something...or when ya got an overpair, they hit 2 pair on a ragged flop (94s comes to mind....you know...the 48/11 who will cold call with any 2 soooooooooooted because thats what he did in limit)

I just get in this mode that I feel I have reads that arent there.....I start calling when most of the time I shouldnt call against villians....basically trying to pick to much stuff off....

Example:

I've got 2 pair on the turn and position....the villian is aggressive....likes to bluff alot.....multi-street too ...he will have a hand 1 out of 4 at most....and 2 pair is ahead near always....but...he's smart enough to fold to resistance, and will shut down if he doesnt have ya.

Essentially....he never shuts down when he is behind.....and always shuts down if ya raise....basically this guy...let him bet bet bet....he's at best 8% on the turn, even if he does suck out...the extra river bets 6 times out of 10 that ya never get by raising the turn is EV+++++++
(super reads....like I am in the zone against certain types of villians)

BUT....then I will take the same line on guys with similar but tighter numbers...guys who dont fire the 2nd barrel or 3rd....and I have a super read that they dont....but I am just on auto-pilot and become a calling station against these guys with TP3K, and they turn over whatever that owns me.....I know I am behind...I know that the best line is to raise the flop or turn and define his hand based upon my read...but I dont. complete Spew.

Funny thing is...90% of the time playing solid poker...that 10% I am donating to guys who should never get my money.

And it is the main source of every downswing......Yeah, my game can be alot better....but its stupid how I forget the most basic stuff and spew money.

Leatherass9 was going on in the forums how he exposed alot of his game in a recent Video....actually saying in his blog that it revealed stuff others never would....
I watched the video...and yeah...alot of the plays he made, were plays that required ya to think and analyze a situation well....
But....

Well...it just makes me frustrated...Throughout the whole video I was like "well....Duh...of course he gonna fold there....or Duh...I raise in that type of spot all the time except against XXX villians"

The Video frustrated me more than anything....because all this info he was providing....well...its things that I see and do all the time....read the situations like an open book....hell alot of my winrate is because of that.

But...I watch Ed Miller's Poker Made simple vids...yeah...80% of the basics...I have down cold...but some of the most "basic stuff" (or at least what I feel should be basic)...I can watch those test vids, and miss have the questions (ones that are similar)...I can rewatch it 5 times...and still miss the question...AND still not play a situation optimally.

Part of me feels and plays like a genius...and the other part can't believe after all this time I dont understand things that SHOULD be so simple.....

I wish I was more social....I wish I wasnt so much inside of a shell...If there is a leak in my game...thats it...Its like getting a college degree, without the proffessors....

Would a coach help? Hell yeah....I am very smart, and when I do get feedback from my questions (even if they cant understand how I think about it)....even if they dont say the right things...I just can extract the info I need to clarrify it.....
BUT...If I was just more open...

My life has sucked...been screwed by the people closest to me....I know its silly to isolate myself..because I do enjoy being around people, just not concetrating ABOUT me...lol...since I am running millions of scenerios through my head about every possible situation....

Ramble Ramble....Sometimes I go back and edit the hell out of a post...but 90% of the time...LOL...I dont even check for Typos....I dont even read what I wrote 90% of the time....because I would probably stop....because its probably jumbled and makes no sense because its more.....well...its just the moment....which is very hard for me lately....so its kinda therapy...lol....I analyze so much now...I even question basic situation....Like I was at the Sonics game....I bought 2 20oz diet pepsi's (actually got 2 caps that both won free soda)...as I was walking away, putting my the season ticket food/drink vouchers in my pocket (OH, lol...what a deal this year....spent $800 on the two seats...they give me $300 in Food vouchers for free food...plus the other free stuff that I ended up just selling...just that alone I almost break even)

Back to the story.....I drop one of the bottles...I crouch down to pick it up...I am way out of the way of people walking....but I notice every persons looks...what direction they are looking...why...how..and have a good idea what they are thinking/feeling etc etc...not just the person closest...but I scope out every one who "could have" seen me drop the soda....and wonder what I am doing in the mini-totebag I have for the Nick Collison Bobbleheads that they gave awya pregame (also put the soda I dropped in the bag).......its kinda sad....lol...makes me want to cry actually. Not because I care that much if I looked like a dork (well okay...a little)...but instead of being able to be my silly self...and make some funny joke/reference that the soda I dropped is "for them"....I actually thought "If someone was with me, I could make that joke".......

The poker post is turning into the blabbering idiot post...I just feel so lonely.....lol....the only time people have EVER wanted to be around me is if I was supporting them and working my ass off so they would be with me.....or because they were inbetween "better" and more "enjoyable" friends.....

I analyze others well, and how they interact with each other....I see the things happen before they do....but I suck when it comes to me....I feel I am so socially inept.....I am such a nice guy....I really am....hell...you can ask anyone who I let fuck me over...LOL....I spend my attention enjoying and trying to be enjoyable to others and just being myself....when I do....its like the blinders are put on.....I mean...the best way for people to like ya, is just to not worry and just be yourself right? But I cant even put myself in the situation any more because I am just so damn scared....I mean....I let people know me...I think the friendship or relationships are going well mutually...I mean...geezus...just once...I'd like someone who would just tell me the damn truth.


I'm not making any sense...and who the frick cares? No one does....the closest thing I have to someone or something caring about me is.....well....my parents...but they have each other, and they dont need me to be around....I mean...I know they love me with all their heart...but I feel like I am such a dissapointment in my life....I just dont want the only two people in the world who dont think I am a failure to think so......they have been so good to me....I love them so much...I wish I could really show they how I feel...but I cant.....which just makes me cry more.

I am so pathetic.....I am really an incredible person inside, but it just doesnt really matter

LOL...the ironic thing is....I will still cry my ass off for the next 3 months...I will still feel the same way as I do...I will still wish for the world....blah blah blah....

And no one will know.....because in an hour or two...I put on the front that everything is fine, no matter how it really is....because I dont want to be a burden on others...I only want to benefit others....because the truth is...no one wants to be around ya, unless you're providing something for them....and as soon as it becomes "standard"....well...no matter what "level" of wonderfulness it is to be around ya....well...when ya raise the bar even to elite heights....well...people toss ya aside because ya cant provide the "next level"

See....even when I write....I do the same thing....try to write crap that ya need a translator for, just to keep....LOL...anyone who would read this...at a distance.

It is pathetic to say that I am a wonderful person....but I am...I wish I could be more of the type of person that can just screw someone over...I'd probably have more so called friends...lol...maybe thats why I want to succeed in poker so much....besides if I can make Alot of money (its a game of people and money)...its the only time I can feel "okay" with essentially screwing another person out of something......sure...win it fair and square...but its satisfying...lol..with my desire to screw over every person who hasnt had my personal values and bent me over...lol....

One of these day I really need to just write a weeks worth of posts about the last 25 years....lol...people would think "DAMN, and you havent shot yourself yet?"...its not like anyone ever reads these damn things....I mean...I pretend that "its all out there for the world to see"....when in reality...any hits to the page...its...read the title...browse 20 words in the 1st 3 paragraphs...then surf to the next blog, site, pic...lol...maybe if I made Youtube video blogs then someone might pay attention....but the truth is...by the time I ever get around to doing that...well....then there will be something else that attracts people to pay attention (I mean...blogs now are a dime a dozen, if ya dont have video...you're just writing to yourself (LOL...aint that the truth though...I am pretending....I mean...I would feel like a dork if anyone I actualy knew read this....I mean...no one understand anyways...so instead of feeling like I was sharing to be closer.....whatever...back to what I think I was trying to say in my ramble.)
Oh yeah...I will always be behind the times when it comes to the "modern" way of social communications....I know and understand people better than most....but when it comes to applying ti to myself...lol...I suck....and am always tryingto filter the "bad" of people not to affect me...but the result is...lol...we wont talk about that....basically...communicationwise...I will alays be holding myself back...not because that I dont understand....but because I am afraid....afraid I will get screwed again by someone I feel close to....and to be frank...I have had as much as I can take....

Okay....I am not making anysense...well....I dont know if I am or not....I cant bring myself to try to read everything I wrote (LOL...I would spend the next 5 hours trying to edit it)

I will probably make another simple post...just to drop this post down a notch...so less chance of anyone reading it (I mean...very little chance of someone reading it, once it gets archived)....see...even when I proclaim that I really need and want good friends...I try to stop it from happening from the fear of past results.....I wish socializing with others was like poker....poker treats me well overall when I play well...when I do something stupid....generally ya get crapped on...which is the way it should be....you'll get sucked out on...but...if you consistantly do the right things....in the end the results will be good over all....lol...but people arent that way.

Okay...enough....lol...maybe its the stress of the Erik Bedard deal on permanent hold...LOL...thats funny...because it has nothing to do with how I feel...though it is funny, how the best years in my live correspond with the good years of the Mariners (oddly enough, when the team is doing good...my life is going good....thats one reason why I am concered about the MAriners...my life is below average...probably less....the mariners "think" they are becoming a playoff team...but I havent felt it yet....lol...which means my life is gonna go down the crapper....lol....I will have to make a post about the timeline of the Mariners and the good and bad of my life....lol....frigging crazy...the Mariners trigger the best years of my life...and significant turnarounds and downfalls...its just crazy.

Okay...going

Craig

King Felix ....The Pitching Pride of Teal and Blue Nation

The One and Only King.....

Felix Hernandez

We've loved him when he was 16 and barely anyone had heard of him....
We love him when it crushed hitters in Rookie ball.....
We love him when he flew through the minors
We love that he was unstoppable...nothing would keep him from the majors.
We love that everyone wanted to trade for him....but the front office finally did something right.

He's the one and only...20 something and Top 10 pitcher in baseball....

He is going to be one of the greatest pitchers of all time.....

LOL...I get goosebumps thinking...

King Felix
and
Long term contract....
In the same thought.

A groundball Power pitcher.....
The Rare and unique

I love the King
I love his fastball
I love his cut-fastball
I love his breaking ball
I love his slider
I love his hair when he was 18
I love his hair now cause his cap stays on
I love the dominance
I love seeing knees buckle
I love the Ks
I love the Ws
I love the power
I love that he's an ace
I love that he is only gonna get better
I love that Mel is gonna coach him
I love to love the King
I love the idea of cloning him
I hope Felix has kids...and we draft all of them

All Hail the King

Please Mr Bavasi.....5 year deal to buyout Arbitration years

KING FELIX

The Man-child
The Myth
The Legend

Roger who?
Randy who?
Gibson who?
Cy who?

thats right...


King Felix....the Man that Makes Mariners fans orgasm every 5th day.

Poker: Week of 1/28/08-2/03/08

End of Week Update


Hands 10603
Profit +740 BB
BB/100 +6.98 (+3.49 PTBB/100)
Hours 24.62
+15.05 BB/HR Per Hour

Well......

The Majority of being on the upswing, was the last 3 days...the rest of the week was alot of upand down neutral days....

Not gonna over analyze it...but I sure folded in some tough spots....they felt right.

One spot I felt I should of folded....well...I was right...and set over set really sucks..the Huge drop on Sunday part of the graph, shows the one hand that killed me...was still up for the day a hundred or so.

The Key for me...is simply folding to resistance...and and putting up resistance to C-bets on spots I think someone is weak.

The main thing I need to keep doing, is throwing away some hands, to keep out of big pots with medium hands...losing a stack for Top pair is not a good thing....its stupid......when they are raising...most of the time it means I am beat....especially when the fire the 3rd barrel.....Sure...it might be a bluff....but its not a bluff 50% of the time or more.....

NEED A READ to call the big bets

Played average.....and thats good enough to make money.

JJ "GAME OVER" PUTZ.....

What can ya say....

Two letters says it all

JJ

It means the other team has no chance....
It means the best hitters walk away in shame

The Destroyer of 9th inning dreams.

No words can do him Justice...

He is an All-start Closer....
He is the nightmare of hitters.....

The splitfinger fastball puts them away
(thank you Eddie Guardado)

THUNDERSTRUCK!!!!!

Thunderstruck, yeah, yeah, yeah,
Thunderstruck, thunderstruck, thunderstruck
Whoa baby, baby, thunderstruck
You've been thunderstruck, thunderstruck
Thunderstruck, thunderstruck, thunderstruck
You've been thunderstruck

Sends chills down my spine anytime I hear the song......

Just seeing him warming up in the bullpen in the top of the 9th....
6 foot 5 of a rocket cannon arm.

Everyone at safeco on their feet...

Nothing better....

JJ Putz.....I have a Man crush until 2010...and you need to resign again

And you're always the best with fans......you Rock dude.

JJ for President is what I say

THUNDERSTRUCK BABY, THUNDERSTRUCK

Game Over

The Unheralded Hero on the corner....

MR Adrian Beltre.....

Some people think the MAriners overpaid....they expected him to reproduce his 2004 year for the next 5 years....and those people are stupid to expect that.

Fools...all of them.....

Adrian Beltre is the best 3rd baseman in the American League by far....
Sorry Boston Redsox fans, Mike lowell is a distant 2nd or 3rd.
Sorry Eric Chavez fans....his reign is over
Sorry Detriot fans...I love Miguel Cabrera but his defense is horrible

Adrian Beltre is the best all around 3B

I LOVE ADRIAN BELTRE
I LOVE THE GOLD GLOVE
I Love the defense
I love the bare handed grabs
I love the off balanced throws that are strikes to 1st
I love the vaccuum cleaner that sucks any balls hit to the left side
I love the appeals to 1B umpire...when its on himself
I love the appeals to 1B umpire...when its on himself (love it so much I had to say it twice)
I love the number 29
I love Red, The ultimate Beltre Fan
I love that we have him ffor 2 more years
I love that someday he will learn to hit a breaking ball
I love his accent
I love groundball pitchers...because Adrian makes them look good
I love the Yuni-Belt (its the thing that holds the left side together)

He is so unappreciated...and often undervalued....All-star defense is hard to comeby at 3B, becasue most teams use the position as a place to attempt to hide bad defense for power.

BOOM BOOM BELTRE

Call him Ambassador Adrian

The Yuni_bomber

What can ya say....

One of the Coolest Names in all of Baseball

Yuniesky Betancourt

Yuni...I love everything about you...

but...please fix the throw ya had in 2007 to 1B

Besides that...I will name my next child after you.

INCREDIBLE RANGE....

Getting to balls on the 2B side is miraculous.

and ...

The Double Mint Twins...one of the great Mariners commercials....ranks up there with Edgar Martinez "light bat" and "clapper" commercial

DEFENSE!!!
DEFENSE!!!
DEFENSE!!!

How do ya spell Defense?

Y-U-N-I + B-E-L-T-R-E = GOLD GLOVE LEFT SIDE

Yuni wont earn a gold glove because of the politics...but over the next couple years he does deserve one.

GO YUNI!!!!!

RAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUULLLLLLL....

Raul Ibanez....

The Resident Left handed bat.

We love ya Raul...but would love you even more if Bavasi got a clue and moved ya to 1B
and or DH 70% of the time.

I was at the game you hit your first homerun.

I love all the Raul giveaways at Safeco.
I love the Soul Patch
I love the bald look
I love your twin brother Jay Buhner
I love the Sick power onslaught of 2007
I love that you love Seattle and came back

Go Mariners

RAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUL!!!!!!

Go Mariners!!!!

KENJI JOHJIMA....the man that never walks.

We love Kenji....

We love that instead of parading around to other teams as a free agent.....
He came to the Mariners and said "I want to play here"

I love Kenji......

Mariners catchers have always been studs....

Dave Valle....Dan Wilson...now Kenji.

There is not a whole lot to say....

With most catchers...ya point out weaknesses...or ya point to one or two things that offset the weaknesses (such as a weak bat, or defensively inept)
But Kenji....he doesnt have a weakness.

Good defensively
Good Arm
Good Bat

He's 1 step being being an All-star...but overall he is better than all the "all-star" catchers.
He's just better all around.

He is the Rock behind the plate.

and a Catcher that ya dont always have to pinch hit for in the 8th....well...that says how good he is at the plate.

WE LOVE YOU KENJI!!!!!

The Man Mariners Fans dont give enough love too.....

Okay...

I dunno why this struck me this evening....

But...

In all the Chaos that is the Bedard/Jones....Orioles saying "yes...no....definately....never....maybe....we love to jerk your chain"

Everyone in the world is talking about 24 players of the Mariners roster for one reason or another....but "the franchise"...no one is talking about.

Mr. Ichiro Suzuki

I love Ichiro
I love his Bat
I love his glove
I love his speed
I love that he's ours for the next 5 years and probably career mariner.
I love the Gold Gloves
I love the Silver Sluggers
I love that he is a little strange (in a good way)
I love the number 51
I love japanese
I love baseball
I love Ichiro playing baseball
I love that he doesnt give his autograph very often.
I love his defense
I love the chants "I-CHI-RO"
I love that I get to see him 162 games
I love his style in the field
I love Area 51
I love how he makes pitchers seem better (Say thank you....Mr Jarrod Washburn)

Mariners already have One King...King Felix Hernandez.....

But....

The Emperor is....

Emperor ICHIRO

Oh....gonna need to pay homage to My main man Mr Beltre...I will save that for another post.

ALL HAIL EMPEROR ICHIRO